Back one morning in June I received a text from another one of Bradley's family members (not the same one who ruined our wedding). The text said I was a mean, selfish, selfless, awful person and Owen was going to pay for that and how he would end up hating me... I didn't take that message very good at all!! I don't care what anyone has to say about me but whenever you start talking about what kind of mother I am that's when I get irate. Everyone who knows me knows that I put Owen above myself and that I try to give him the best life possible. The reason the family member sent me that msg is because I wouldn't let Bradley check out Owen from daycare after the Father's Day luncheon that they had. You may be wondering why I didn't let him check Owen out?? This was about the same week I found out Owen had been around Bradley's girlfriend. So I wasn't about to let Bradley have more time with Owen when all he was doing was taking him around her. I don't know why that family member thought it would be ok for her to put her two cents in. I will never understand why she did that. Still to this day.. Four months later, I have not said one word to her. I have been telling Bradley I wasn't ready to be nice to her or ready to even listen to her talk. Today we went to church and the sermon was about if your a christain & acting like a christain, and how if you have any bitterness towards anyone you need to let that go. So as soon as Brother Jon said that I immediately thought of the family member who had said such awful things to me. Brother Jon gave an invitation that if anyone needed to go to the alter it was open. I knew I needed to go but I had never been before and I was nervous... Minutes went by and I was still standing in the pew. Then all of a sudden my whole body started to shake and I just started towards the alter. I prayed God would help me let all the bitterness go towards the two family members who I still held grudges against for the things they done to hurt me. Ever since I left church earlier today I have felt different. I am so thankful to be a part of such a wonderful church & thankful for what God is doing in my life.
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