I'm a Mom.

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 It's 4:30 a.m., as I sit here watching Nora Kate sleep I am having a hard time fighting back the tears. Today is my last day of maternity leave before we enter the weekend & reality hits on Monday. Although I am thankful for my job, I would gladly take 9 more weeks of maternity leave!! I never imagined I would have two children, I thought Owen was going to be my one & only- but God had NK planned for us and she is the perfect addition to our family. God has blessed me over the years and continues to bless me daily, but two of my biggest/greatest blessings are the two that call me/will call me momma. It's hard being a mother, there are days where nothing seems to go right. Days where I feel judged for every little thing I do, Days I want to call my mom & tell her I get it now, Days where I am terrified for my children's future, Days where I don't care if I have a social life as long as I'm with my family, Days where I am so exhausted I don't think I can go on, Days where I feel like I am a failure. Then there are days where my four year old says your the best mom and I think for one day I actually have it all together. Although I am far from having it all together I do strive everyday to be the type of mother they remember. Being home this summer with my kids has been the best summer I have ever had, but all good things must come to an end...
Now please excuse me while I go cuddle with both my kiddos and we make the most of this last day of maternity leave. 


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